My dreams

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 21:12:21 GMT

Hey, gotta new name.
wolfgirl9969

It's FO....for those people i may not want reading or something...

i dunno.
if you really want, comment on that name.
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Thu, 26 Aug 2004 19:17:31 GMT

Yeah....

whatever.
I'm done with the journal thing.

I'm done with everything.

Goodbye.

Fuck you and your fucking mind games.
All these times.
It was a fucing lie i guess.

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 18:55:40 GMT

hey.
is anybody out there?

save me please....

there's somebody in here...

and i'd...

give it all away.

to have somewhere to go to.

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 04:39:05 GMT

Fuck the fucking fuckers.

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 20:37:51 GMT

bipolarpenguin9

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 05:48:22 GMT

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

<3 This was one of the slow songs at the wedding Sat. Along with 'Simple Man' hehehe. I love Linda and Pete.....*cries*

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 04:09:13 GMT

I dream that someday we'll be able to
Look back on this together and say
It was for the best and that it made us
Stronger today, stronger today
There's much more for us to see
A brand new day for you and me
And with confidence I say, "We're better than ever"
And I don't know where this will lead
But in my life you need to be
Cause I need to say, "Hello again"
I'm so afraid that if I wait too long
You'll never look in my eyes again
With a look that gave me strength and gave me hope
And made me feel I've inspired
There's much more for us to see
A brand new day for you and me
And with confidence I say, "We're better than ever"
And I don't know where this will lead
But in my life you need to be
Cause I need to say, "Hello again"
Hello again, hello again, yea
Hello again, yea
There's much more for us to see
A brand new day for you and me
And with confidence I say, "We're better than ever"
And I don't know where this will lead
But in my life you need to be
Cause I need to say, "Hello again"

memories

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 03:31:01 GMT

not many'll know what I mean by this, but a few will. This song has a ton of memories.

I don't want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
Why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Cause I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
Is it a waste of time?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
...What is it I've got to say...
So why are you running away?
...To make you admit you're afraid...
Why are you running away?

*laughs and cries at the same time*

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 05:47:32 GMT

How should i know...what i'm thinking...

what the fuck.

don't bother caring about me.

fuck it all.

just make it...so i don't cry...

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 18:19:12 GMT

I think i'm gonna take up smoking....

why not just kill myself faster?

More Than Words

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 18:16:29 GMT

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It’s not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I’ve tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don’t ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cause I’d already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

I've been locked in you heart shaped box for weeks....

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 04:35:07 GMT

SOOOOO
Maybe and actual update, huh?

I need to get out and do things...
but then i need to massivly get this work done too...

i need human contact sometimes...

i got a lil today...went over to Jess1's house and...heh...it just went on from there...
hahah...i hope she gets to see J soon!!! awww...*lesigh*

i wanna see a couple people...
but they're hard to get ahold of...or to see....*siiiiiiiiiigh* or sometimes they don't wanna see me. don't blame 'em.

uhum.....
*dances*

i dunno...i should get back to work. almost done i'll be able to enjoy life once this is all done yehaw!!!!!!!!!!!

that was on big ass run on sentence

i neeeeed a life......................

*sigh* oh well

love to all. byebye.

Kissing survey....

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 03:30:20 GMT

Age of first kiss: 11

Number of people you've kissed: 2

French kissing is: exciting

The worst kind of kiss is: a goodbye kiss

The best kisser you know: Mike's the only kisser i really know...

The worst kisser you know: me!

The celebrity you'd like to kiss: ...hm...dunno...

Friend you would like to kiss: um...i duuno....

Favorite movie kiss: One in the rain

Do you kiss on the first date? i've never been on a date ^ ^''

Eyes open or closed? half-half

Average number of kisses you get a day: depending on who i see that day

Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? nope

The last person you kissed: Mike

Best placed to be kissed:

Have you kissed someone of the same sex? nope

What about the opposite sex? yep

Do you consider kissing cheating? cheating on what?

The longest you've gone without a kiss: uhum....4 or 5 years

The kiss you regret most is: um...

Kissing in public is: Naughty hehe

Tongue rings are: there

Two girls kissing is: um...two girls kissing

Two guys kissing is: once again...2 guys kissing

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 00:48:54 GMT

i'm tired...
damnit, i was supposed to get together with Jeff....
Atleast I got to hang out with mike for a while...

Ugh I'm sore too...
damn you softball, you haunt me forvever!

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 18:32:43 GMT

wait up for me
you're where i want to be
stop long enough to say goodbye
goodbye
goodbye
it's all said and done
keeps me at ease
sings us both to sleep
we don't have to say goodbye
goodbye
goodbye
all said and done
goodbye

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 17:21:14 GMT

I don't need fucking pills!

i'm not fucking messed up!

I"M A FUCKING TEENAGER FOR GOD SAKES!

*SIGH*

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 01:59:07 GMT

I feel tired....
and drunk...
and incredibly lonely...

somebody call meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

so unloved *cries*

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 08:16:36 GMT

wee.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 23:28:31 GMT

i'm planning something...

somebody help me....

please...call me if you can help me...

please...

last update tonight...i swear

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 05:12:01 GMT

....

YAY FOR INCEST!!!!!

....

Thank you.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 04:33:13 GMT

i'm moving to Depew.

goodbye lancaster.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 03:02:40 GMT

I think i gave myself another concusion when i hit my head on the concrete the one night Popo, Cab, and Dingo came over.

My eye's pratically swollen shut....

Heh...maybe i'm just tired.

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 01:59:01 GMT

I'm so pissy lately...

Maybe I need to be yiffed.

Hahahaha...

JK.

wee

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 03:18:03 GMT

I want my waffle sundae..gimme my carbs!

Becuase i'm selfish ^ ^

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 03:57:19 GMT

sat outside with my cat for a while....
then i put him back in and went and laid on the grass.

it was soft and damp. and the sky looks like a million pieces of glass when you shine a flashlight on them.

I felt like i belonged again....
like i felt last night...
maybe becuase...

i wasn't myself for a second.